I've been struggling a little bit with the idea of how vocal I want to be about my problems. I mean, I know this is a public blog and all that... I'm more talking about sending emails out to friends saying "I have cancer" or whatever. It just feels kinda like being an exhibitionist. I've known other people with serious medical issues on their plate and they never seemed too free with what is wrong with them. If it was something more like the plague or nuclear radiation sickness or maybe bitten by a radioactive spider or bombarded by cosmic rays that gave me super powers... but no, colon cancer. How un-fun is that? Anyway, I'm probably sending an email out today,which is why this is on my mind at this moment.
Otherwise, I'm feeling ok today. Didn't sleep very good, up a couple times during the night. I don't feel like I'm quite back to normal after the colonoscopy. Close maybe, but still a little bit blah and sort of unstable. The stress probably isn't helping that any... and neither is feeling like everything is up in the air. I need to meet with the surgeon to know what's going on there and need to meet with my doctor to know what the results of the cat scan are. I also need to start banking blood, according to my doctor. He said I should start banking my own blood to lessen the need of a transfusion when I have my surgery. It's too easy to just not think about all this crap and put it out of my mind, but that's only going to make my problems worse in the long run. Hell, not even in the long run.. in weeks from now.
The weekend is here though, so I'll get to the gym tomorrow and that should help. I'm pretty much back on track with going to the gym, so tomorrow should be a good workout.
-jk
5 comments:
well. At least when you give blood they give you a cookie.
I always try to look at the bright side ;)
heh heh
Can you get away from the black background? What is your main goal with this blog? I've got some remedies/solutions that can be a bit long and controversial, so I'm not sure if this is the best way to communicate. How open are you to other things that are going on in this thing called "Life"?
I've tried to get away from the black background, but it follows me, everywhere.
Regarding remedies that are long and controversial... well, maybe you missed the part about me not having long. I added a list of a few of the things I have tried so far to cure the colitis. Some of them are both highly controversial and not at all effective, at least in my case. Your controversial remedy, is it equally effective? Are you willing to bet my life on its efficacy?
My main goal for this blog? Why to pick up women of course. Don't you think reading about these particular medical problems will make women flock to me? As I said elsewhere, my thinking is that this blog will help me... get support and find solutions and vent and complain and whatever else I happen to need at the time. Maybe it'll help others in similar circumstances... knowing I've lived with it for so long and seeing what I've tried. And maybe if it's successful enough, ads and donations will help me pay the outrageously expensive bills, both from doctors that help me a little and the equally expensive controversial "cures" that seem to help me not at all.
As for "other things that are going on in this thing called life", you'll have to be a lot more specific.
-jk
openeyes? why do you have no access to your blog? I would think a black background is better than locking up and hiding oneself from the world and being anonymous.
Hey Jim, seems like you have some good, positive things going for you. The idea about a blog on alternative remedies could be esp. therapeutic and helpful. In my last comment I said that I had some remedies and solutions, but what I meant at that time was toward paying of the doctors' and/or hospital bills. Check Google for Hill-Burton Act. Also, HJR 192 (discharges all your bills because there is no "money"). More coming
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